Monday, September 19, 2011

Birthday Parties!

This summer was marked by 2 special birthday parties. First up - Asa's First Birthday Party!

Sock Monkey Party!
Dessert Table

Cake Pops!

Cute cake!

Birthday boy in his "cake" outfit

love that face!

Surrounded by more presents than he knows what to do with

Our cute little sock monkey!

Then came Jackson's 3rd Birthday party - Farm Theme!
dessert table

even the dogs were farmers

birthday boy

blowing out the candles

favorite book now

treasured Woody doll

new kitchen playset

pinata time

Friday, November 12, 2010

Sorry for the silence...

It's been a long couple of months for our family. I won't post all the details. Luke's mom started a blog recently, where she has written a lot of the detail from Jackson's medical journey. In short, in early October, we discovered that Jackson's pancreas still had a leak which we had hoped was fixed last summer. It needed to be repaired through surgery. On October 12th, he had a 6 hour major abdominal surgery where they attached his stomach to a pseudocyst of fluid that had been leaking from his pancreas. We went home after a week and a half of recovery, but had to return a week later because Jackson was having major pain, his white blood cell count and pancreatic levels were way up and they were concerned the surgery site had already pulled away. All the scans and labs drawn after turned out fine, so they still don't really know what happened to cause it. Currently, he has a pump feeding him into his small intestine 24/7. He's allowed to eat what he wants and is doing great!

Interestingly enough, the verse(s) that really helped me through all the craziness was a verse I posted before it all began.

Ephesians 3:17 "Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God's love and keep you strong."

It's super tough to be at your 2 year old's bedside following such a big surgery. And even when he's feeling better, it's hard to keep him entertained and keep the iv's intact while he attempts to recovery into his normal self. Not to mention taking care of the needs of a 4 month old and maintaining a marriage all at the same time. I'll admit that I felt rather run down, tired, weak, even defeated at times.

Friends of ours posted this verse on my facebook wall when we had to return to Mott and had no idea what course this would all take. Reading it literally broke me down to tears....and strengthened me in a moment when I felt I had no strength left. Because I did not have the strength...but God did. And He wanted a place in my heart. He wanted me to trust Him, regardless of circumstance. And when I did give Him his rightful place, He gave me a feeling of inner strength. That, leaning on the hope of His promise, we could get through whatever life brought us. I didn't have to feel strong on my own...on the outside. God wanted to provide me with strength, through His amazing love and grace.

I'm reminding myself everyday even now, when life seems to be stable and normal (if that is even possible), that my strength comes from daily turning my heart over to Christ. Giving Him Him the room to strengthen me from within. Surrounding me with His love...and that's enough.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Not giving the devil a foothold...

Ephesians 4:26-27 "And don't sin by letting anger control you. Don't let the sun go down while you are still angry, for anger gives a foothold to the devil."

I've heard the phrase "don't let the sun go down on your anger" before. Usually in terms of "good practice" in a marriage or relationship. It does make things better, that's for sure. It's a lot better sleeping at night when I know that Luke and I have cleared up all our differences and neither of us are holding onto bitterness or anger.

But, we often don't continue on to verse 27. Not letting our anger control us and not letting our anger simmer isn't just because it is a "good thing to do." It's a way of battling Satan! The longer our anger simmers, it's like we are giving Satan that much more room to get in our relationships and start wreaking havoc! And once he starts, it's hard to clean up his mess.

Halting our anger plays a huge role in having Christ centered relationships. Because only with Christ at the center can our relationships stand the test of time and flourish. I'm thankful for Luke calling me out when he knows I'm upset about something. And I'm thankful for his openness when I call him out on something. Always thankful to have a godly husband who makes sure Christ stays at the center of our marriage and family!

Monday, August 9, 2010

Deeply Rooted

Ephesians 3:17 "Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grown down into God's love and keep you strong."

I guess this verse just made me ask myself how deeply rooted I am? And my answer is not deep enough. But, this verse says that Christ will make his room in my heart I trust in Him. It's not about how much knowledge I've gained or how much Scripture I have memorized, but how much I trust in Christ. I've been pretty good so far as staying committed to spending SOME time with the Lord each day. I think that keeping God as a priority and doing my part in that relationship is building blocks to a more trusting and strengthened faith. Maybe in a month from now I'll be able to say that I'm more deeply rooted and strong. Can't help but think that will have an enormous impact on all the other areas of my life.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

And here we go...

I need to confess something...

My spiritual life has been in the pits. Not that I've been living with some huge glaring sin problem. And I've been blessed with our new little Asa and I love my toddler Jackson to death. But, I've been so focused on being a "great" mom and keeping the house relatively clean and trying to be a good wife to my husband, that I've left God out of the picture.

And it's not pretty....

My attitude pretty much follows my spiritual temperature. And I've been very negative lately. Maybe not outwardly, but my thought life has been yucky.

So, yesterday I was our family's "rep" at the New Believer Lifegroup we colead. As I was sitting there listening to our group members ponder what Scripture really says about our lives and hearing them talk about how awesome it has been for their lives to be changed by God, I felt like God was giving me a swift kick in the behind! "Sara, do you hear this? You used to have a fire for life like this! You used to ask Me to lead your life. I used to have your heart. Where have you been?"

And I didn't have a good answer for God. I have no excuses. But, I do have a renewed commitment and sense that I don't want to keep living this way. I need to turn my heart over to God DAILY...give Him the command of my life.

This blog will be my open, public means of staying accountable to this. I plan to read and journal (no matter how short lived it is before I am interrupted to feed the baby or play with the toddler) every day.

Here it goes...Day One:

Ephesians 1:11 "Furthermore, because we are united with Christ, we have received an inheritance from God, for he chose us in advance, and he makes everything work out according to his plan."

I take such assurance knowing that God has a plan set in store for my life. But not just to make me happy...but to make HIS will known. My life is to be almost a tool for Christ's light to shine through. Every interaction, every mistake, every decision I make is an opportunity to be used by God for His plan. How awesome is it that God would want to use a mess up like me? Better start taking that more seriously!